update
I study
I am alive
Lund University, ftw
Never in Lund.
Post it
Yesterday when my dad picked my up at the station and headed home, my mum had prepared dinner for us coz she worked in the evening.
She had a post it on the table.
Saying: Welcome home, there's soup, bread and cheese in the fridge.
hugs Mama.
in the fridge a post it, where it said: Soup to Cecilia and Papa.
Really sweet.
Excuse me, I'm in here.
don't touch me
when I go by train I always curse my financial situation because I can't buy two seats next to each other so I can be left alone.
It's going to be a bumpy, old spicy ride
the social network
waiting...
Dark or Milk?
Being the lameass kid, of course I choose milk.
Dark is for grown-ups.
which I apparently not am.
Almost 25.
In 1 month and 4 days.
But still I go for the milk chocolate.
Dark is bitter.
Milk is easy.
But I will try to eat the dark chocolate and be a mature adult.
yeah, good luck with that.
First Christmas gift!
My momma always said that life is like a box of chocolate.
sticky and messy if it gets warm.
too hard to bite if it's too cold.
enjoy with a glass of milk or a fine wine.
and because I'm lactosintollerant,
expect stomachache and cramps and maybe a few visits to the ladiesroom.
Merry Christmas!
I am so badass
I'm bloging from my classroom, in class.
I also overslept and had to runt to school.
Didn't have the time to even brush my hair.
yeah, this badass is on a roll here.
Now I'm going to steal candy from children.
Have yourself a merry little Christmas
Sitting at work. Everyone has left the building.
I'm still in Lund.
Listening to Judy Garland and imagine myself being in one of those sad Christmas movies where everyone else is having a merry Christmas except me who's sitting alone at the Library.
Alone.
Wishing to go home for Christmas.
I still have classes.
Tomorrow is my last day at school and also at work this year.
Feels pretty good though I wish I could have gone back home earlier.
I will come home the 22nd and do all the Christmas shopping and preparations the 23rd and try to get some freakin Christmas spirit.
Winterland
the perks of living in a dormitory
when you look outside the window to see this wonderful winterland
there's a trash bag hanging in the tree.
I thought of retouching it, but then again, I speak the truth.
and it's kind of funny.
going to miss the winter next year.
going to miss the beauty.
but not the cold weather.
Oh, LA, hope to see you next winter.
The Grinch
I miss those days when I had the time to prepare for Christmas. You know when you decorated the house, made gingerbread, gingerbread house, saffron buns (cats), dressed in ugly red sweaters, went to church, sang Lucia songs, went for Christmas shopping in the middle of December or made your own gifts, went up at 7am every morning just to watch Julkalender (the Christmas Calendar) and so on.
I always watch the first episode of Julkalendern just to see if it’s any good and if it is, I follow it every morning or evening.
But this year, I forgot.
I also forgot about Lucia.
And I forgot Advent Sunday, until today and today it the fouth, so I missed the other three.
I haven’t even thought about Christmas shopping.
My plan is to go out the 23rd and try to find gifts for the family.
Wish me luck.
But today, I was with some friends to say goodbye for the Holidays and drank mulled wine, ate traditional gingerbread and Skånish gingerbread (apparently they are soft and round, pretty ok) and cheese cake and pineapple, coz that’s how we roll. Yeah, traditional Christmas cheese cake and pineapple.
And I started to reminisce.
Back to those days when the Christmas preparations and expectations were a part of December and a magical time.
I miss those days.
2 years ago, when I had long hair and we had gingerbread house compitition in the dorm.
I won.
In my head.
I made my family's house
and small gingerbread people representing me, mum, dad and my brother.
some of my friends were lame and did the White House and Big Ben.
Totally lame.
All I want for Christmas...
...is you, rest.
Hey Lady, back the F** off!
I know what ya'll thinkin "why is she up so early? is she a vampire?"
I had to buy some snacks for work.
I have such cravings these days, I wonder why.
anyway, so at the cashier, standing in line, I felt how something hard is bumping to my ass.
for a nano second I was thrilled, then I realized that I was at the supermarket, and it might be a bit inappropriate, so I turned around waiting for one of two things:
- a really hot guy, hitting on me with his hardon.
- Harry Potter with his magic wand.
It was an old lady bumping in to me with her cart.
because it was an old lady I didn't mind (I never mind if old ladies are hitting on me, if y' know wot I'm sayin, höhöhöh. sorry.) and turned around (everynow and then I get a little bit lonely) (these parenthesis doesn't work that well, right?)
But then she bumped into me again.
And again.
And again.
It was like a virgin that without a compass that was bumping into my bun.
And again.
And I didn't say anything.
Because she looked kind of senile and been there, done that.
But kind of annoying.
My ass hurts.
SJ, SJ gamle vän
They've been around the block and know that in Sweden it will snow every winter so precautions are taken.
Always in time.
Dependable.
Finally on the train.
Just had to wait for 1 hour
Big improvements.
Blurry coz it's cold outside.
It's snowing.
-5 C.
Waiting in the cold for the train makes my fingers stiff and shaky.
I blame SJ for this blurry picture.
I will sue you.
gỏi cuốn
I will burn in hell
identity crisis
I have now completed my tasks and all my deadlines are now behind or in the future which means that until tomorrow I have nothing to do.
I don’t know what this means.
I haven’t experience this for such a long time that I don’t know what to do.
What do I do?
I have the evening off and can do whatever I want to.
That is weird.
Well, I work now, so after 6 pm.
I have the evening off.
What shall I do
What can I do?
What do people do?
I don’t know where to start.
This semester has been a very busy time for me and the few moments that I was free, I can’t recall what I did.
Do I even have a life beside my studies?
I study,
I work,
I apply for exchange,
I am a part of organizations,
I have deadlines,
I have assignments.
But now when I have nothing else until tomorrow, what to do?
I can’t prepare for tomorrow because I already did and I have sent every email, called every person, done everything.
Wow.
tell me about it, I am so confused.
Marry me
Let's get physical
Bring it on biatch!
I woke up today with the worst heart burn.
The whole day has been less than splendid.
so now I give up.
for those who knows me,
knows that i don't like to take drugs,
either it's medicine or happy pills
but I can't take it no more.
I cave in.
I am so weak.
I feel so ashamed.
Don't look at me.
btw. I love Olivia Newton John.
My secret consumption
like Goffman would say.
or this is more of a drug for me.
I love them.
I've eaten more than 1,5 kg last week.
Do you know what bothers me?
You know when they order takeaway in a paper cup.
And then drink from it.
Place it down on the counter.
And you can hear how empty the cup is.
You know it, I know it, they know it.
It's nothing in the cup.
Be an actor.
Act well so I will believe you're drinking it.
Yeah so I watch Grey's Anatomy, so sue me!
I feel so emtyp
I think I've made a decision about next semester.
I think I am happy.
I am so emo.
I'm a fan of temporary solutions
Dreaming
I just hope to get my dreams come true.
Final Countdown
2 more to go.
I fell asleep
Woke up after my afternoon nap and saw my face in the mirror.
This explains it all.
Lucky me it's was with a permenant marker.
just kidding.
*sobbing...
CV
*update, this is one of the 8000 pictures I took. The only one I was somewhat pleased with....thx to photoshop.
*update 2, I got this pic from a friend. which one should I choose.....I don't know....I think I'll choose the first one.
It was all yellow
It's really snowing.
We found this
and we wondered: what is that?
pee? coffee? beer?
I came to think of:
"Min jul ska vara kul.
Min jul får inte vara ful.
Som påsken den är gul, ska min jul vara kul.
Och snön den ska vara vit, och är den gul har någon pinkat på den.
Kanske en H..hu...Hund.."
Google translate, don't you just love it?
"My Christmas should be fun.
My Christmas will not be ugly.
As Easter is yellow, my Christmas will be fun.
And snow it will be white, and is the yellow one has peed on it.
Perhaps a H.. Hu ... Dog .. "
Where is the world going?
taken with my badass cellphone camera.
yeah, Facebook is now not only a part of the new media,
it's also part of the traditional media.
Update of my state of mind
But UC, you're worth it.
Hamlet is da shit
I'm a bit slow
I should have known better.
I should have done this a long time ago.
But then I again,
since when do I do stuff that is expected of me?
Never.
I always do stuff when someone says:
"hahaha, no one does that!"
Me: "done!"
Yep, I'm weird that way.
To expain better:
Today I ate my third Falafel.
in.four.years.
or as my father would say it:
Fala...Fel
"I know what you are."
My eyes are twitching, I going for the Twilight-Bella-look.
and the academy award for best performance goes to...
I don't feel so good right now.
This weekend has been great.
except for this headache, tiredness and the pain in the body.
yes, ladies and gentlemen, I am hungover.
don't get me wrong. I didn't drink that much and I didn't plan for this to happend.
This friday I had some wine to the dinner and yesterday also.
But I guess due to the lack of alcohol in my life I am not used to drink more than 1 glas of wine.
I actually haven't been drinking for ages.
So when this weekend had two different evenings with alcohol, my body was a bit suprised.
this actually sucks.
I'm getting older.
I can't even drink more than 1 glas of wine coz the next day I'll be hungover.
I'm so weak.
So I will make this promise.
you, as my witnesses.
I will never drink again.
kidding.
I will drink again.
but not for a long time.
and not much.
1 glas of wine tops.
and I will also start taking care of my body.
you know, exercising, eat fruit, vegatables and shit like that.
The pain I'm feeling now, I don't want to feel like this again.
I will also go to bed early.
Like 10pm.
and no ice cream except saturdays.
or candy.
Mehahahaha
Wanna hear the Google Translate woman beatbox? Copy paste this from German to German: pv zk pv pv zk pv zk kz zk pv pv pv zk pv zk zk pzk pzk pvzkpvpvzk kkkkk bsch
Nostalgic
Like old times, it started with some dinner and prepartying.
Then we went to at party downstairs and danced like we never danced before.
I remember those times when I used to go out and party and it was apart of my weekly rutine.
Nowadays, I stay home and study, prepare myself for next year's adventures and just hang out with my closest friends.
But this nite it was so much fun.
We all were older, hopefully a bit wiser and acted like 16 years olders.
We saw the typical rolls/charachters.
the hunters: those people who's only got one goal - to get laid. very entertaining to watch.
the hipsters: standing in a corner pretending to be cool and to don't give a shit.
the drunks: they had tooooooo much to drink and are pretty much a pain in the ass coz they are very disorientated and bump into people all the time.
the posers: those guys who pose and preform like they are freaking Shakespear, "all the world's a stage...."
the cool guys: us, of course.
we danced like mad, and I don't mean Michael Jackson-moves.
No, I jumped around like insane, doing the robaot, jerking, the running-man and all the 90's classics, didn't give a shit, coz when you get older (I'm almost 25) and when you're don't have the pressure to meet someone you kinda relax and just are.
I laughed and danced and just remembered those days when I was younger and insecure and had different perspectives. I don't miss those days, but it's always nice to reminisce. I get quite sentimental. Being out with the old gang, like old times.... those were the days...of our lives.
Dinner for two
Just had the perfect date.
Feeling a bit banged today
sorry, couldn't resist.
it's actually bangsed
my bad, typo
don't you just love makeup?
walking around the whole day looking like this.
don't get me wrong, I have nothing against the Emo-look
but I prefer the clean, sophisticated style
the icequeen
sometimes living in Sweden is awesome, when you can see stuff like this.
Yeah, baby! @cjjt is going back to nature.
bye grey and blue
Let's be honest, I've been a bitch.
Today I snapped at my mother.
My dear, loving mother
I called back after a few minutes and apologized.
I also yelled at one of my friends yesterday.
I think I apologized.
Did I?
Hopefully.
So I will turn around my attitude and be happy and jolly like a freakin cheerleader.
I will be so annoyingly happy that you will wish that I will die.
no, not really.
but when God gives you cookies, you dip them in milk and eat them.
you don't through them back at the sky and bitch and moan about it.
Bu freakin hu, I feel so sorry for myself. I get to work hard to prove that I will get what I deserve.
no, no more of that.
I will be happy and not stressed or grumpy.
now shut up and eat your freakin cookie.
the art of selfdicipline
The thought are going crazy in your head:
Don't think about how much you need to pee, just think of dry stuff.
Not waterfalls, or foutains, lakes, the sea or anything that has to do with the colour yellow.
come on get a grip! I know you can do it.
I can't!
Yes you can!
No, I'm sorry, dude, I have to pee.
not in the classroom!
I'm sorry....
don't be emo
in class, during the presentations
thumbs up for those who gets the Shred a tear reference and likes K-pop.
I'm bringing sexy back
rocking the starwars hairdo today.
you can't say I'm not a trendsetter.
