@cjjt

You know when there are roll calls and they start in alphabetical order, I always get called last coz my surname starts with the 20th letter. So there are a lot of names before me. During that timeset I always get stressed, worried and nervous that I won't get called. That they made a mistake and when they ask if there was someone missing from the list I will say yes and they will say, mohahahaha, no you were not called because you don't belong here!

Yes, that kind of stuff goes around in my head. Especially when it comes to important stuff, like when you start a new class/course or when you're at your introduction meeting. The reason why I bring this up is beacause I was at a very important meeting this week and I almost shit my pants when they started calling people. I was so afraid that they wouldn't call my name, that it all had been a mistake, a joke for prove that I don't get my dreams and failure is in my future. yeah, I have great confidence.

but luckily I was called. and now my dreams might come true. I don't want to say too much, considering there are some things that needs to be done first before I know for sure. But all I can say, for those who have read this blog, you all know that I had the weekend from hell making applications... I found out that I got nominated to my first choice.... YEAH!!!! BABY!!!!!I'M SO FREAKING HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!